i keep on thought he will come back.
few people say he won't come back anymore.
but i keep on hold on the hope that he will be back and i will get the answer i want on 28.02.2010.
why at the first place he dont tell me the truth ?
why until now i ask then he will tell ?
he know how i feel anot ?
did he really care? Nah , maybe he really dont care. :(

i keep on think he will come back de.
he still love me de.
all along i was a clown acting to make people laugh .
he should know how much i love him.
why i give in wholeheartly and i get this ending ?
what did i do to deserve this ?

those bear . those photo.
everything which got me and him i really cannot forget.
he know i need him. he know is hard to forget him. :(

down to drink with brothers just now .
all ask me to forget. hope i really can ba.
maybe i'm not good enough that's why he not coming back .
hope another girl will replace me .
and MAKE SURE another girl who enter his life really treat him well .
i really can't let go . i really cannot let go.!!!!!!!!!!
is fucking pain. i guess all girls know that feeling ba.
all say needs time to cure. this time round , how long can i cure?

i really don't know what to do now .
i'm totally so gone and crazy now .
What happen to me ?
IMISSHIM IMISSHIM :(
all my friends,sister and brother say i can do it.
i really can ? i'm so upset now.
why don't have another chance between us again ?
Just one more chance i really will do my best :(
no matter he will still love me the same anot ,
as long he come back i'll still do my best. :(

anyone can feel my pain now ?

all i think of is LQH , LQH , LQH .
WTF ~
he treat me like this why i still want him back ?
if he really back , i get his person and not his heart , what for ?
some people say ,
he will be back .
some people say ,
he won't be back .
i really dont know ..... he told me everything le.
should i carry on wait even though he said he still love me a little ?
is there a chance together back like last time ?
or all already over ?
told a few of my best friend about this.
they said . " he was using me and make me like a fool waiting for the answer "
at first i don't trust them.
but now , i think whatever they said is right .

everything end now .
yes, everything . :(
what is move on ? anyone can explain to me .
i feel so lost now .
going to bq later night .
drink until i song .
going to forget him after tonight drink .
i dont hate him , but as long he is fine will his life will do.





LQH ,
you going in army soon le .
better take care yourself okay ?
anything just give me a call.
I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT .
although we had ended but still i care for you .
dont drink so much le .
don't play so much too.
hope you really can found a girl who really treats you good ya.
i'll blessed you.
don't need worried about me .
i'll be fine :)
LOVES<3

Sometimes i feel there's something pulling me away from him .
He is so fine without me .. Gosh .
should i carry on wait ? or i just waste time ?
If we haven't break up , today is our 2month anniversary.
He promise me to watch "My Ex" with me.
we did contact everyday.

everyday i'll text him and ask "how're you?"
he will reply " ok ok . u?"
i'll say "What do you think? i'm not fine."
He replied " sooner or later you will be okay".

Gosh. Once i heard this my heart was aching like fuck.
the feeling is fucking .... ahhh .. don't know how to express my feeling out. )=
I'm really really troubled.why can't i just let go?

Sigh. still got one more month to go then i can get my answer.
i really want him to come back .
will those hope he give me become disapointment? )=

i willing to trade 10 years of my life just to be with him.
I lost my heart, can i have yours? :(

well , i think i'll carry on waiting till the day comes
no matter what's the answer will be , i'l still blessed him.
and i won't regret if he never come back ,
cause i know i already given him my whole heart before (=


LQH ..
Listen hor.
i'm still waiting okay ?
i really will text and call you everyday .
i really will fan si ni de hor .
cannot ignore my call or message okay ?
i miss you badly :(
Takecare.

Labels : In a lifetime , everyone is given two chances. you missed th first chance , if you did not cherish th second chance . We'll just bid good-bye. so give me a second chance , 不要判我死刑 )=

How does a relationship carry on ?
isit no matter how much you try and how much you tahan those unhappy things he did.
the history still repeat ?
no matter how much you said to him ,
just oneday he will totally forget about everythig ?
What is love ? anyone can explain it to me?
i don't know why , i feel so down right now at this time .
whatever he say one , i won't say two.
relationship takes 2hands to clap. why always i'm the one who trying so hard yet gain nothing ?
i already try my best not to angry everything he do.
as long he happy i will happy.
but sometimes , i sure will have something that really made me unhappy about it.
why i say to him , the things still carry on and on for almost 2months?
sometimes i will ask myself , how long can i tahan ?
i can tahan almost 2months, i must tahan how long then he will understand ?
isit his feeling faded ?
or he love me no more ?

who can tahan her boyfriend talk to his ex-girlfriend on the phone when you are around and you and your boyfriend didn't meet for 5days?
and not only one time or two time that the ex-girlfriend called ?
the ex-girlfriend call , boyfriend didn't even tell her that he's with girlfriend !!!!
Tag her in blog whatsoever !
sms and call everyday !


TELL ME WHO CAN TAHAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
only stupid people can ! FUCK IT !

come on , people who know me will know i'm not this kind of person who can tahan thing .
why this time round , i can tahan so long ?
i really want to wash my hand off already .

i gonna tell you this .
3months ? if really i can tahan until 3months ! that's mircle already !
if i leave you , trust me , you will regret how you treat me .
i can be gentle and caring for you always.
i can be the sweetest among all your ex-girlfriend.
Go think ,

while we are sleeping , suddenly thirsty feel like drinking water,
you ask me take water for you .
did i shout at you or what although i'm tired ?
sleeping people sure will kpkb if suddenly ask them do things but i never.

whatever . i dont want say much .
say already also one in one out.
if this carry on , i will leave.
this thing is sooner or later only .

i'm serious this time round. no joke!


Labels : Cig and liqour is my best friend now . going breakdown soon.